For the last few years now I've really been almost constantly, extremely busy at work and I've been getting less and less into the studio. In the evenings or weekends, instead of spending as much time in studio as I normally would, I lately find myself mostly just taking a break or doing something else. Don't get me wrong, I still love making music - but it's always been a case off, when looking at the clock a few minutes later, hours have already passed and when you know it, time is up.
I've been under a lot of pressure, you know the kind that consumes you, and I think it's caused me to loose my mojo. I cannot remember the last time I played saxophone, for example. And that used to be one of my passions. I've also been slow to take on any new productions with new artists, almost avoiding it.
And then, for the last number of years it was only me and my mate still keeping our band of a few decades old, still alive. We were the original founders of After Hours and I've always believed we would keep going as long as we can move. We've done a few recordings of our original songs in the studio and had a decent number of tracks that we were still working on. However, after COVID it never really continued and the relationship deteriorated, and for some years now nothing much has happened. I don't understand why, but we've drifted apart and I've found that there is no will to revert. I've invested in some new gear and guitar software, for us, for my mate, for After Hours. But over time it dawned to me that it was just me still dreaming, and I've ultimately accepted that we've reached the end of the line, After Hours is no more. We've had some of the best times in my life together, and that is what I want to remember. A large part of my life was dedicated to After Hours and I'm proud of what we've achieved.
Music will always be a part of me so I'm not backing out completely, however I'm starting to focus on more important things now. One of them is spending quality time with my wonderful wife, overdue by a long shot. For decades, she's stepped aside for the other love in my life, music. Time for a worthy change ;)
